Rejection by a Girl Stings - Vi

So after last Sunday's date with Vi which seems to be a flop. I don't know why she's down to hang out yet is so distance from me. 

I texted her yesterday and still haven't heard anything from her today. 

After analyzing the date with Tony it kind of seemed like I was talking bad about her and it was like intuitively I know it wasn't going to work out with her and that it's okay the fact that she doesn't text me after the date. 

Her interest level was either not there anymore after the date because I sensed it not being there during the date. I cannot even contemplate calling it a date because of her social distancing lol. 

Anyways having known all this and accepting that she isn't interested I am still hurt... I feel rejected and it's no fun. 

I know I don't have a lot of experience with girls even though I try and go out of my way to study them, approach them, and plan dates when I happen to get one in a blue moon. Here is me wasting my efforts, energy, and time while the girl is probably blase since she has so many options from online to offline to family and friends introduction.

Why do I think she isn't interested in me? 

• She's already seized me up by asking random but strategic questions on my whereabouts
• She has more social intelligence (extroversion)
• She's independent and works out where as I am a mama's boy
• I have terrible acne / acne scars
• My face is a resting bitch face / AFC who hasn't had any luck in a long long time
• Inherently I'm not stable - no full-time career. Not a man with a mission.
• I feel inferior at my "workplace"
• I don't get respect from anywhere

So what's a guy like me to do? I'm just being honest. Girls don't want someone on the bottom rung they want someone better than them. Someone who is cocky, confident, and is popular.

I got to get this off my chest and move on. 

If I could wish for one skill it would be the ability and energy to focus on being a master learner and accomplish my goal of becoming a digital marketer. Once done I will have the resources and respect to command what I wish.