Sometimes things happen for a reason? Things have happening for the better in my life recently. Just going to new places and I realized that all my preconceptions and judgement of a particular event or person seems to change.
My head is definitely one illusion I've been facing. It has blinded me and made me fearful and negative. It has blinded me to what reality really is. When I imagine the worst or feel crap about a situation or person and then "do it anyways." My perception was not even the least accurate.
Things have gotten better as in I went with my Dad to one event which turned into an upward spiral and allowed me to go to other events and learn or meet other people. Life is meant to be lived in harmonious relationship with our environment and with others. I wholeheartedly should believe in this and strive for this kind of relationships.
I had such a wonderful and spontaneous time with my friends from KF class. We only expected the 3 or 4 of us like last year to dine before I go off for training but then we ended up going in a big group of 6! I had some little doubts about "oh it might get awkward" or so and so is not going to come but to my least expectations I invited this one individual and he ended up showing up! Wow it is so true that you miss 100% you don't take! In addition even thought I had invited this other person who rejected me, another person managed to invited this person. Wow again! say goodbye to limiting beliefs or barriers.
This really got me thinking now how it is so important to be persistent but first of all to take chances!
For the longest time I have never been so free and flowing and enjoyed such company. My only thought was to see how many people I can invite and just bounce off one another. I don't like to judge people and be choosey it has not gotten me far but made me more bitter and I think it is bad karma. Thinking win-win and connecting everyone together was who I am before I became a depressed monster!
We dined and enjoyed each other's company. Followed social customs and the different personalities made the evening fun! It is only when I am released and not stuck up in my own thoughts that I can be relaxed and make others feel relaxed as well. I have never heard this other dude talk in a full sentences ever since I was here but today I heard him talk and was at awe in such a small feat.
I felt more young and my smile was genuine. People noticed it. There's no need to keep telling my sad story over and over even if others had already known about it. I broke that pattern today by saying I'm fine and I don't need encouraging words like "hang in there." I won't let my thoughts or past make me who I am right now at this present moment. This present moment is all that I have and I will make the most of it. Physically I used this moment to train to my maximum potential. I've "mastered" my techniques by feeling the time, flow, strength, relax, smooth, and rough parts. I have control and balance over my body.
I feel like its the right thing to do to just focus on the positive and not judge people because I never know what to expect. I should rather expect the best. Little things really make me feel excited and surprised when I learn something new. Growth and Life is synonymous; there can't be one without the other.
Connections are important to keep oneself up to a high level of standards if any standard at all. Without connections with family and friends I become withdraw in isolation pitying myself and not even taking care of myself. I had no one or accountability. I was lifeless in despair... I don't want this for anybody! Could this be that choosing to be a counselor is the path for me?
Positivity from dinner was so infectious that I was glowing with radiance and self-confidence. I introduced myself to the barista that my friend and I had visited again.
The 4 Agreements
1. My words are truthful (I go by my standards not societys - just because people favor popularity doesn't mean I should burn bridges)
2. I don't take anything personally (I control my reality before I let anything not even myself hurt myself)
3. I don't make assumptions (This one's a true limiting belief destroyer!)
4. I always do my best
Social, Relationships, Hugs, Love, Generosity, Customs, Social Int., Present moment, Joy, Happiness = IDGAF
Friendship > Money
It is better to give than to receive. I have been practicing this subconsciously and consciously. Money doesn't mean much to me because relationship matters more. Through hanging out with a friend and his friend Lisa last time I am reminded not to judge a person by the way they look and that understanding them brings joy to both side (win-win). We both learn from one another. If I do not give everyone a chance to get to know or understand them than I would be missing out. Thanks to Teresa for enlightening me on this topic before. I feel joy, her love, generosity, abundance, and am becoming more opened to the world to which requires my life force.
Going to CSL taught me to give and to greet "others" or "strangers." Going with father to Adult daycare also taught me to not judge people. I am really One with All. I learn about myself and others through social interactions.
Social, Relationships, Hugs, Love, Generosity, Customs, Social Int., Present moment, Joy, Happiness = IDGAF
Friendship > Money
It is better to give than to receive. I have been practicing this subconsciously and consciously. Money doesn't mean much to me because relationship matters more. Through hanging out with a friend and his friend Lisa last time I am reminded not to judge a person by the way they look and that understanding them brings joy to both side (win-win). We both learn from one another. If I do not give everyone a chance to get to know or understand them than I would be missing out. Thanks to Teresa for enlightening me on this topic before. I feel joy, her love, generosity, abundance, and am becoming more opened to the world to which requires my life force.
Going to CSL taught me to give and to greet "others" or "strangers." Going with father to Adult daycare also taught me to not judge people. I am really One with All. I learn about myself and others through social interactions.
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