"Things happen for a reason"
Tonight I just went to my routine martial arts class and lo and behold my usual classmates weren't there but there was TP. TP noticed how sad I was ever since I came back in town. I asked her how I changed? She said I was more serious. Last time she said the same and I was surprised. How and why did she say this? Today I got clarification.
Instant Rapport - Correctly and Connecting by talking about other's Main Subject (Themselves/thoughts)
She notices all the little things like how I wasn't smiling like before or wasn't talking to so and so. She predicted my whole depression/situation by predicting it. It already takes skills to notice someone who is suffering silently by reading their BL and face yet it takes more powers to predict someone's situation so accurately! She asked me if it was a family problem? Sort of. She said it was personal than. Yup. I didn't say anything further and she connected the dots that it was a career/life issue. I was at awe with my mouth opened. Shocked. This was before class.
Even after class she'd asked me if I want to talk about it. Like me I didn't want to be a bother to anyone but she kept talking and we talked for quite a while outside all sweaty and in chilly weather.
Her Counseling
She's such a true, wise, good human being for her age. She isn't bsing either. She clarified what "faking till you make it" versus choosing to be happy meant. She's gone through tough things too but she doesn't let it let her down.
She told me not to hurt myself. She suggest I write things out. She's an ENFJ. She gave me recommendations like go back to community college, become a monk or missionary. Lol she read my freaking mind it's crazy. I was talking to my mother about being a monk yesterday. She said I could be a philosophy teacher since I've read so many books on religion.
I told her I didn't want to pollute her mind with my negativity but she said she can handle it since she has seen reality.
What a strong soul! Never letting negativity or other's bs opinions bring her down. It shows since she's good in class as well.
What a priceless interaction. NO counselor can match up to her.
She'd tell me stories of how mopping around doesn't do any good (probably from personal exp). That she likes to talk to people and that meeting people can change someone's life.
That the "world doesn't owe me anything" - Omg I died hearing her say this. This is deep and I've heard in in a youtube video but her is a girl who's teaching me on life.
Her outlook is - Positive, emotionally strong, doesn't give up, persistent, likes making a difference in people's life by helping people.
She'd even try to help me get a job. Omg she's SOLUTION oriented!
She said that she can show the horse the water but it's up to the horse to drink it.
Tells me to smile. Tells me how low confidence my bowing was. Wow I should be a shame of myself. When I do not have a mentor or any role-model the only person I can be aware of is myself but even then I wasn't aware of how shitty of a job I was doing in just the basic tasks such as greeting others and bowing. It takes discipline as it is an everyday thing not just temporary.
Personal Revelation
I've been so in my head that I don't even care or noticed how I portray myself in the real world... No one even has the balls or courage to tell me or even know who I am to be able to tell me that like she said straight to my face, "I look like shit." Lol. Literally she wasn't lying. I'm too busy playing the victim role that it I am waiting for a savior who doesn't exist. I am in control and am responsible for my life not anyone. Others can have an impact on my life but I have to reach out or learn somehow whether that be communicating with so and so or doing activities with so and so.
I trust her because she predicted my whole situation in less than a few minutes and that even her recent advice was that I should make a goal to introduce myself to many people in my new environment.
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