Inspiration to Change - to MOVE OUT - Self-discovery and Self-confidence

 So I have quite a few inspiration and they may seem crazy but here goes...

1. Switch full time for Amazon to downtown. Get a studio or apartment and then join an MMA school. Aspiring to be a pro MMA fighter. I was inspired by Thanh Le and Martin Nguyen. 

2. Start a YT channel when I move out about my journal and transformation to becoming the Asian male I want to be - to instill confidence to those who fall under the same boat (depression and lack of success as an Asian male). I like the creative aspect and the leverage I can have on this platform to share my  genuine self.

Reasons why I kept researching and asking people about moving out because I want to move out but never took action:

1. Staying at home stint growth

2. Alex at Amazon said I wasn't mentally 30

3. To be able to date

4. To be able to connect and befriend positive people I want into my life 

-What kind of man am I? - What kind of life do I want to live? - Who are my companions?

5. Watching this one Asian video guy and MW PUA talk about confidence and how Asians are meek made a lot of sense to me. I cannot live under the same roof with my parents anymore - they programmed me to be meek and also shoot my confidence because I care about what they think. They don't portray any confidence and it doesn't even help me to see them care so much about what others think of them. 

6. My environment (since I was a teen) is the same and also anchored me into depression

7. I do not like being around my dad who is there but not there. He's always on SM and is slow at doing tasks and doesn't do anything for the house or what I see a man should be. He eats the wrong type of food. Parents always argue or bicker about the same stupid shit. My little brother is also not useful or helplful but also disrespectful. 

Where did this IDGAF attitude towards my family come from? My father. Totally a weird character trait and is opposite of my mothers or my trait as an empath or highly sensitive person?

8. I want to move out to recreate myself. I mean I got a new car. What's next is a new place to live. To be able to freely create my life and mature as an adult.

From my research the negatives of living at home at my age are:

1. Stint growth / immature

2. Girls won't date me

3. Make less money

4. Not emotionally mature

5. Not ready for a family

6. Lack love and social life

7. Lack creativity (because tolerate at home too much)