What My Day Was Like
Today I did really good at work. Got home a little earlier than usual. Shower. Eat. Do more research online about coding bootcamps but then became sleepy so I set the alarm for 35 mins to sleep which ended up being like 2 hours of sleep as I get horrible images of demands from work. You can call it a nightmare. Stress/Dream/Seems like real but isn't...
Second Chance for Jack Donovan
Anyways I did more research and somehow got myself on amazon pondering about who Jack Donovon is. I read his one essay on White Rule or something and decided I didn't like the guy. Also read the comments and reviews for his books which made me decided not to like the guy but today I want to give him a chance and read his popular book Way of Man to see it for myself.
What I Learned About Myself - Use Own Brain
I am different and I have my own brain. I do not need to mindlessly listen to what others have to say. I want to make the final call. Just glancing more on his stuff and came across in a comment about a book called Manipulating Man about how the title describes it. The female author who wrote the book and published it in the 1970s received daily death threats and even her book was banned from the US.
For some reason I just love and am intrigued by ideology which is like a hidden gem from societal point of view. I am not a YES MAN (not sure if I used this term correctly). I am a truth seeker. I always listen and want to hear from both side of the story. I am a Mediator. lol random rant.
Anyways I feel like an idea rushed in my head about how it is true that Masculinity has been shot down pretty much. I don't want to be a wimp or a fool who is manipulated by women or society. The vagina isn't that special yet society worships it.
I agree and have noticed (w/ Donovan) that men often strive for higher conscious or higher purpose and ideals such as Strength, Courage, Honor, Mastery, etc. Well these four are the intro the The Way of Man book by Jack Donovon. Just seeing his Instagram makes me think wow this guy is pretty boss. He is living a life of freedom and masculinity like no other. Makes me think of how I always strive to create a tribe of brotherhood but haven't been successful. Now I know what to do and who to look for. I need to be of value with these Masculinity virtues and then I shall seek men with these similar attributes.
Plans
I don't like to tell everyone about my plans anymore. It seems like from the past that people (family and friends) always shoot my ideas down or point me in some other direction. I need to have a spine. I need to follow my instinct and do what I want. That is the criteria for success and success requires action... Quit my job / Fly to another city to take a Coding bootcamp. Sounds like adventure and fun!
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