Life is so Boring

I'm always bored. There's nothing to do. Nothing I want to do. I'm fucking lazy?

No money, no honey? Damn it I really want to be successful but reading all the time doesn't prove shit.

I don't know anybody or anything worthwhile.

I love anime and movies. There's always a cause to live for. A plot. A struggle. An issue. A solution.

Movies always come out with a good or bad ending (usually good). It's always complete one may say.

In life though, it's a mystery. I can't predict. I'm confused. I confess I am alone, tired, restless. Not knowing what to do sucks. Not having any principle sucks. Not knowing what is real and fake sucks. Not having anyone to talk to sucks.

I might as well go insane. I am bored out of my mind. I know the right thing to do is to avoid wasting money and time on entertainment yet I have nothing to show for it. No other thing. Nothing to move me.

I'm stuck and sick. Fuck...

My Vision - Day 21:Awakening

Laughing out loud with friends and family.

I am on a camping trip to explore the trails of our state park. I am in full gear ready for anything. Got my snacks, fire maker, water bottle, etc.

I take wonderful pictures of nature. There are no trash to be found. There are a lot of wild life in its natural habitat.

I'm such a good writer that I am flawless at making zero mistakes/typos.

I am knowledgeable on all books such as the Bible versus the Koran versus the Verdic Indian book as well as Buddhist dharma.

The sun gives me power. I love nature I love human beings who are part of nature.

Tomorrow will be an awesome day!

My Vision - Day 20: Change

I am happy and free. I am wearing a nice white collard shirt with some blue design. I am surrounded with family members. I am in Vietnam and we are having a family reunion. My Vietnameseis great. I can Speak it and read and writ. I have a lot of young and healthy entrepreneur friends.

I make the right decisions to move m life forward. I will not accept defeat. I will not sell myself short wasting my time in a job that is not worth my time or does not matter to me.

My core confidence will not be affected by my family members. I do what I want and am happy. I am confident even if I don't have the answers now I am confident about my future. All it takes is commitment, discipline, and hitting that daily grind towards that vision.

I take the momentum leap.

My time is important. I learn more than anyone else. I am bold and determined. My passion is in winning and that is my only focus.

What the Fuck Rant

I'm really sad...  I don't know what I want or how to get there. I don't have a clue where to start. I care to much about what people think. I feel enslaved to my home and parents. I feel enslaved or oblige to make money but I don't want to be a slave for work - it's very unhealthy.

I feel stagnated. Not happy. Wasting precious time in my youth living in my head. I have no idea what I want or how to get there since day 1. I don't even try. I don't even have a passion for anything, not anymore.

I feel bitterness and boredom and jealousy, I feel like nothing is worth it not even religion. Religion is so phony I don't trust in religion or anything. People always try to sell stuff so I feel that this also leave a bad taste. I feel stuck. Don't even know how to decide anything. Don't have any support system or any mentor. I don't know what the fuck I want.

Girls? Money? Sounds easier said than done right? I've already lost many great friends. My situation isn't going to get any better being the same or worst. I am so tired of my life. I wish I was younger and knew what I know now. I would major in Computer Science. I would study my ass off and get out of my fucking bubble.

I have been timid all my life it's time to kill this personality and start anew. Focus on my strengths? What so I can make a living practicing martial arts? Cool, Cool... Like who needs martial arts when you have guns? Who has time for martial arts when all you are doing is paying for classes and not making shit money.

What the fucccck..!

My Vision - Day 19: I am A Creator

I stop reading books. Books are fun to read just like watching youtube videos but they don't change my life.

People have short-term memory. Knowledge doesn't do shit but creates analysis paralysis and it build on top of it. It's not like people will remember to act on the knowledge either way.

The only thing that sticks to memory is caused by massive action. Massive action is movement and momentum which propels one into uses all the senses: listening, emotional, speaking, seeing, you name it. Only through action and personal experience can one learn.

The trick is not learn beforehand. The trick is to go in pursuit of what you desire by taking action first. Thus, you can learn in real time. You can also learn from you failures or success. Fail? No such thing.

Everything is a learning experience.

Stop asking questions. Ask many if you want to but the thing is don't stop moving and DO SOMETHING BRO!