Shut up and Work

Update
The past two weeks I've been going out I got one number close from a girl who has a long distance bf. I went out more than the norm since dreamkast came to town. 

Made some changes in my life due to how things aren't working out such as reading less, wasting less time habitually on youtube, books, podcasts, blogs, no more porn. 

I asked myself multiple times what I want in life and I still don't have a clear cut answer. I don't want to waste anymore life time or be a leaf in the wind. I know that I have a lot to learn and a lot of discipline to build up to be "successful." 

The same shit comes up like study and take the ASVAB, get the next slavery job, start programming, pua. Procrastinated and it is such a killer.

The comforts of life really gets me and feels like a fish who don't even know that they are in water. I'm too comfortable in my environment that I don't even have the inner motivation to change or take action towards what I want because what I want is not big enough or not meaningful enough. 

Enough crying. This journey is one of self-discovery. So I should be more "selfish" in going after what I want or feel like doing. 

Shut up and work.