How I found Falun Dafa and Self-study
I found the Dafa in 2012 when I was curious and happen to found the Epoch times newspaper near the computer desktop. I read the articles and was intrigued. So I did some research online and ordered the first book. Falun Dafa. I read it and must have really enjoyed it because I then returned and bought the other books as well. I was mediating and it was awkward at first to practice the exercises. I even tried to reach out online for other practitioner but there was no success. I was diligent in my my meditation by practicing in the mornings and evenings. This was also the period where I was starting to practice pick up and attracting women because I felt lonely and inadequate. The two sources were very conflicting and I was confused. On the other hand I come from a Buddhist tradition and although the Buddhist teaching had helped me understand and compare it with the Dafa, I couldn't come to grasp with believing in only the Dafa.
Somewhere along my pick up journey I stopped practicing the Fa and stopped going to the meetings.
Returning to the Fa with Fa Community
One day when I was at the Asian market I saw a flyer about Falun Dafa Day. It hit me that I know what Falun Dafa was! I was excited and since I was out of school and had no job even though I looked hard I had lots of free time and decided I go to Falun Dafa Day. I almost didn't make the Falun Dafa Day because I was going out late at nights trying to practice pick up but at the same time pickup taught me persistence and integrity and self-discipline.
So since Falun Dafa Day I met more Falun Gong practitioners and had my questions answered. It was so diverse - there were people from many backgrounds and it just made me feel appreciative. I started to go to the Dafa Study every Friday and got in contact with other practitioner simply by talking and questioning. Since the majority of the Fa study participants where Taiwanese and I felt out of place A. gave my contacts to CV who was from the same country I was from. CV reached out to me and invited me to her home which I didn't mind driving far away. There we read the lecture and other practitioners showed up. During discussion I shared my story and asked questions I had about the Dafa.
Losing Sight of Dafa Shortly
Going further down the road I was still doing pick up and learning a lot about success and entrepreneurship but none of it really changed my life because I was bad at implemented ideas into tangible results or taking massive action. I stopped going to Fa study and was pretty much distracted and became a normal human being going through the motion of life. I felt that I missed the intimate community as in groups such as the sanga so I've been practicing Chigon and going to listen to dharma talks with a Tibetan Monk.
(Master suggest to stay with only one school)
CV Reaches Out - Am I a Serious Dafa Disciple?
2 weeks ago a CV, Falun Dafa practitioner who I met a few months back said that she was going to the Dafa study on Friday. I don't know why but I never refuse any invitation from her now that I look back. The only times that I had to refuse was because I had something I needed to do or plans. She wanted to discuss with me after the Fa study but since it was raining heavily she said maybe another time. We read the last lecture which was lecture 9 all together.
Since then I felt like this is no coincidence. I picked up my Zhuan Falun book and started reading from the beginning of the book. I read diligently everyday and the more I read it the more I understood the concepts and what Master was talking about. It was an easy read and this would be my third time reading the book.
Yesterday which was Sunday she contacted everyone ahead of time to meet up to practice the exercise together and have Fa study. She persisted even though logistics were not in her favor. It turns out I was the only one who showed up. She and her family of 5 drove almost an hour just to come to this gathering and I was the only one who followed through. I was waiting patiently. I didn't have negative thoughts or anything plus I had only four hours of sleep the night before since I woke up early and felt fine to go to this gathering. We did the exercises together and I got to meet CV's family. She also invited me to lunch. We talked more about Dafa and tests. It was very meaningful and I am so grateful for this opportunity. At the current status quo, Master is not very optimistic about many sentient beings being saved.
That night I was very self-aware of how I dealt with my family members and others. I felt like I had failed some tests and since I am impatient I feel that as long as I stick to cultivation practice - answers will reveal itself to me.This is a serious matter and not child's play. My new purpose should be to save human beings and return to my true self. CV and her work with the Fa was so inspirational like many of other Fa practitioner's stories. She was genuine and it is very difficult to find genuine people around. She held her arms and door open and welcome me and anybody new in and took the right action keep each other accountable.
Decision
I now that lately I've been feeling lost like I do not know where my roots are. I've been studying religiously and going course after course or youtube videos and books after one another like a madman to so avail. But since reading the Dafa everyday for a few days straight now and reading some inspiring stories on minghui about other young practitioners such as my self. I have a feeling/thought that I should be a more genuine practitioner. I am more mature and have been lost and constantly seeking truth when truth was already there - I just needed to discipline myself to the high standards of the Fa. This means that I have eliminate human attachments which I have many (sex, lust, lies)... I feel like a lot of my time have been wasted pursuing meaningless matters. It is going to be a difficult road but I might not get another chance like this.
I have already implemented small changes such as reading the Dafa everyday, not buying alcohol when going out but there are more attachments that I must remove.
I know I want to take my parents to Shen Yun and I feel like I want to volunteer there like CV and her family.
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