Tuesday, November 24, 2015

On Spirituality

On Spirituality
Saw an RSD video since somewhat a long time. It was the one where Tyler was in the Red woods of Cali talking about motivation. I totally agree with him on the 3 different levels of motivation and why we tend to shift our motivations. I see myself not very motivated to have sex with beautiful women or else I would be hustling hard already. Sometimes I feel like I’m just doing this because other people are doing it or it’s just what society think is cool. In a way PUA does go against my other path which is a spiritual path which I have been inherently searching for a long time. I think I found it [Falun Gong] and have been trying to get back to it consistently since finding it in 2012, at the same time as starting cold approaching with SimplePickup.

My spiritual path could careless about getting laid and making money. It’s about removing human attachments. Although I don’t have many attachments the two reoccurring attachment I have are Ego and Lust. My lower motivations are like everyday people wanting to prove myself that I can pickup chicks, study the pursuit of success, and make money. So I go in and out from one motivation to another [this is what happened in 2012 and pua took over and then I stopped my Spiritual path]. Of course the high self is always better and I do feel peace and understanding going this route compared to the frustrations of pua and pursuit of human desires. It is not to say that I won’t pursue them. I will but it shouldn’t be priority as human attachments will be human attachments, not of higher spiritual self. There’s a way bigger purpose in life than money and girls and that is the spiritual path, in my case Falun Gong.

I’ve realized that just because someone is successful in a certain aspect of their life doesn’t mean that they should be followed because these people may have mastered a part of life such as money or women but in the end it is not self-satisfying as Spirituality. Peter Voodg and Dan Pena are badass as making money but both cannot even sit down to meditate. I find this pattern somewhat intriguing. Basically I am saying to be careful of who you follow and what you read as human moral has declined tremendously. In example with RSD Julien… I was a big fan of his but I changed my mind after seeing Shift and his new channel. When he went too far to market himself so ridiculously and got into a scandal he then comes out with Shift. I sensed that this scandal woke him up. He then released Shift which was a no bs product and he goes into what he went through. What does that say about RSD Julien before Shift? It says that he was in a manipulative frame of mind in pursuit of fame, money, and women. Not saying he is all bad but I felt that I was one of his puppet because he lied to his fans. Why would he admit to everyone in his new product what he had done wrong if he didn’t do anything wrong? So again, just because someone is “successful” doesn’t mean they have the best of your intentions.

Yeah I do not think a lot of people will understand where I am coming from but this is what I am going through. As I am writing all of this I believe I am writing in the best of my intentions and from my higher self.

Check out that Tyler video. Check out Falun Gong. Keeping it real.


*If I get banned or any of this gets deleted. I think you know why.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

1st Time Volunteering for Shen Yun

It's a Sunday and I didn't have anything planned so I volunteered to pickup 3 boxes of brochures and than went around an apartment complex to deliver them. There where about 22 buildings each was 3 stories tall so I ran up and down the stairs. It was a cool day and so half way in I didn't need my jacket anymore. I kept a good fast pace jogging most of the time or walking fast. I started at 12:25 and finished at 2:40 so it took about 2 hours and 20 minutes to deliver 2 and a half boxes out of 3 boxes.

My first building I was excited. This opportunity made me realize what a great show this is going to be in January and I cannot wait to take my folks to watch it. I also realize that there are so many people to deliver these brochures to. It's obvious that we live in a big world but the experience of consciously knowing there are so many people besides the folks I am use to.

Afterwards I got my hair cut and then went to Martial arts class. I was -2 or 3 pounds but I felt great. Wasn't dizzy or super tired in class either. I only had some crackers and water while I was volunteering solo and in the morning I had cereal. When I got home after Martial arts class around 6:35 pm is when I ate my dinner which was saved from lunch. I am amazed at how great I felt even though I didn't eat lunch yet jogged and walked for 2 hours as well as go to martial arts school and made it just fine.

In addition to all this I slept only 4 hours last night.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Dream - Special treatment & Post apocalyptic?

I dreamed that I was with some of my family members. We were part of some secret society and so our hideout was at a school. We were going somewhere at night and had returned. We had the shortest path towards our destination compared to others who took the train and took the longer way. Maybe it was because my brothers were in high rank or in the military that we had special treatment.

I saw Binh on the back of a train. It was kind of futuristic or anime like how he was somehow hanging or hovering behind a train.

This is all that I could remember...

Today is veterans day after all...

What Attachments to Eliminate


  1. porn
  2. sleazy pua - lies
  3. speakers who are after fame and fortune
  4. sentimentality; ego, showing off, placing high value on what is minuscule 
  5. chikung practice
  6. other theories/religion
  7. youtube
  8. various music
  9. going out to low virtuous environement

Monday, November 9, 2015

A Young Practitioner's Journey on Falun Dafa

How I found Falun Dafa and Self-study
I found the Dafa in 2012 when I was curious and happen to found the Epoch times newspaper near the computer desktop. I read the articles and was intrigued. So I did some research online and ordered the first book. Falun Dafa. I read it and must have really enjoyed it because I then returned and bought the other books as well. I was mediating and it was awkward at first to practice the exercises. I even tried to reach out online for other practitioner but there was no success. I was diligent in my my meditation by practicing in the mornings and evenings. This was also the period where I was starting to practice pick up and attracting women because I felt lonely and inadequate. The two sources were very conflicting and I was confused. On the other hand I come from a Buddhist tradition and although the Buddhist teaching had helped me understand and compare it with the Dafa, I couldn't come to grasp with believing in only the Dafa.

Somewhere along my pick up journey I stopped practicing the Fa and stopped going to the meetings.

Returning to the Fa with Fa Community
One day when I was at the Asian market I saw a flyer about Falun Dafa Day. It hit me that I know what Falun Dafa was! I was excited and since I was out of school and had no job even though I looked hard I had lots of free time and decided I go to Falun Dafa Day. I almost didn't make the Falun Dafa Day because I was going out late at nights trying to practice pick up but at the same time pickup taught me persistence and integrity and self-discipline.

So since Falun Dafa Day I met more Falun Gong practitioners and had my questions answered. It was so diverse - there were people from many backgrounds and it just made me feel appreciative. I started to go to the Dafa Study every Friday and got in contact with other practitioner simply by talking and questioning. Since the majority of the Fa study participants where Taiwanese and I felt out of place A. gave my contacts to CV who was from the same country I was from. CV reached out to me and invited me to her home which I didn't mind driving far away. There we read the lecture and other practitioners showed up. During discussion I shared my story and asked questions I had about the Dafa.

Losing Sight of Dafa Shortly
Going further down the road I was still doing pick up and learning a lot about success and entrepreneurship but none of it really changed my life because I was bad at implemented ideas into tangible results or taking massive action. I stopped going to Fa study and was pretty much distracted and became a normal human being going through the motion of life. I felt that I missed the intimate community as in groups such as the sanga so I've been practicing Chigon and going to listen to dharma talks with a Tibetan Monk.

(Master suggest to stay with only one school)

CV Reaches Out - Am I a Serious Dafa Disciple?
2 weeks ago a CV, Falun Dafa practitioner who I met a few months back said that she was going to the Dafa study on Friday. I don't know why but I never refuse any invitation from her now that I look back. The only times that I had to refuse was because I had something I needed to do or plans. She wanted to discuss with me after the Fa study but since it was raining heavily she said maybe another time. We read the last lecture which was lecture 9 all together.

Since then I felt like this is no coincidence. I picked up my Zhuan Falun book and started reading from the beginning of the book. I read diligently everyday and the more I read it the more I understood the concepts and what Master was talking about. It was an easy read and this would be my third time reading the book.

 Yesterday which was Sunday she contacted everyone ahead of time to meet up to practice the exercise together and have Fa study. She persisted even though logistics were not in her favor. It turns out I was the only one who showed up. She and her family of 5 drove almost an hour just to come to this gathering and I was the only one who followed through. I was waiting patiently. I didn't have negative thoughts or anything plus I had only four hours of sleep the night before since I woke up early and felt fine to go to this gathering. We did the exercises together and I got to meet CV's family. She also invited me to lunch. We talked more about Dafa and tests. It was very meaningful and I am so grateful for this opportunity. At the current status quo, Master is not very optimistic about many sentient beings being saved.

That night I was very self-aware of how I dealt with my family members and others. I felt like I had failed some tests and since I am impatient I feel that as long as I stick to cultivation practice - answers will reveal itself to me.This is a serious matter and not child's play. My new purpose should be to save human beings and return to my true self. CV and her work with the Fa was so inspirational like many of other Fa practitioner's stories. She was genuine and it is very difficult to find genuine people around. She held her arms and door open and welcome me and anybody new in and took the right action keep each other accountable.

Decision
I now that lately I've been feeling lost like I do not know where my roots are. I've been studying religiously and going course after course or youtube videos and books after one another like a madman to so avail. But since reading the Dafa everyday for a few days straight now and reading some inspiring stories on minghui about other young practitioners such as my self. I have a feeling/thought that I should be a more genuine practitioner. I am more mature and have been lost and constantly seeking truth when truth was already there - I just needed to discipline myself to the high standards of the Fa. This means that I have eliminate human attachments which I have many (sex, lust, lies)... I feel like a lot of my time have been wasted pursuing meaningless matters. It is going to be a difficult road but I might not get another chance like this.

I have already implemented small changes such as reading the Dafa everyday, not buying alcohol when going out but there are more attachments that I must remove.

I know I want to take my parents to Shen Yun and I feel like I want to volunteer there like CV and her family.

Friday, November 6, 2015

Shut up and Work

Update
The past two weeks I've been going out I got one number close from a girl who has a long distance bf. I went out more than the norm since dreamkast came to town. 

Made some changes in my life due to how things aren't working out such as reading less, wasting less time habitually on youtube, books, podcasts, blogs, no more porn. 

I asked myself multiple times what I want in life and I still don't have a clear cut answer. I don't want to waste anymore life time or be a leaf in the wind. I know that I have a lot to learn and a lot of discipline to build up to be "successful." 

The same shit comes up like study and take the ASVAB, get the next slavery job, start programming, pua. Procrastinated and it is such a killer.

The comforts of life really gets me and feels like a fish who don't even know that they are in water. I'm too comfortable in my environment that I don't even have the inner motivation to change or take action towards what I want because what I want is not big enough or not meaningful enough. 

Enough crying. This journey is one of self-discovery. So I should be more "selfish" in going after what I want or feel like doing. 

Shut up and work.

Thursday, November 5, 2015

SuperHuman OS - Typology and Drive

Integration Questions:
1. How does understanding types expand your awareness of your own tendencies and potential
for growth?

Able to use the strength to achieve and improve life and allow you to know how to deal with people and know how they are driven.

2. How can you use your understanding of types to create environments and conditions that are
more conducive to your natural tendencies? For example, finding space to be alone if you tend
toward agency, or finding community to support your growth if you tend toward communion.

Join toastmasters can benefit both Eros+Communion. Going out solo to develop Eros+Agency. Have been embracing agency by going to events I want to alone.

3. How can a deeper understanding of types help you to more fully take the role of others?

Will allow me to effectively communicate to a certain audience. For example, if I were to market or make a sale I would first determine what Vertical or Horizon the person is and then adapt to his or her desire. I can embody that drive to relate to another person when speaking with that person.

I believe that I am Eros (creative) + Agency (independent)
Raised by a mother who is Agape (nurturing) + Communion (Yes-man)

Sometimes the Truth is Hard to Swallow

Sometimes the Truth is hard to swallow. Yes I am a person who has always been open minded to learning and growing but when I am all over the place I tend to be "gullible" to the books, lessons, teachers, I encounter. Really I do not know what is the truth but when I hear it or read about it I feel like it is the truth and that I want to follow that path but I get easily distracted from one path to another.

While reading the end of Lecture one of Falun Dafa, Master reminds me to put my heart into one cultivation practice, especially a high cultivation practice such as Falun Dafa. Right now I've also been going to a Tibetan Buddhist monk who I enjoy learning from and I started Chigong with another teacher. I'm really at a crossroads between paths. Sometimes I do not even know if it is okay to just practice Chigong just for health. Would this count as following a different path from Falun Dafa or not? Will this affect my cultivation?

I find it difficult to practice Falun Dafa because I do not feel connected to a community. It's not easy doing things by oneself... If I burn bridges and devote the rest of my life to cultivation practice, I predict that I am closing my mind to other teachings and growth.

Dogma... Why I dislike thee but You could be the Right Path towards perfect discipline and high cultivation

Tangent; I think Ernest Holmes would agree with Li Hongzhi that the mind is powerful and effective in manifestation of reality.


Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Notes on Dan Pena

Tips
  • Just do it.
  • Most men live in quiet desperation so follow your passion and you will never be tired.
  • Emotional bank account
  • integrity - commitment
  • Work 16 hours a day
  • Get high on Life
  • Be selfish. You can't help others unless you help yourself first. Self-esteem.
  • Love yourself and you will love what you are doing.
  • Look deep into yourself and the past 10 years of your life. Where did you waste time? 
  • Show me your friends and I can show you your future
  • Stop hanging out with losers and bums
  • Believes that we were put on Earth to reach our fullest potential.
  • An eagle soars the sky alone
  • It's mind over matter
  • Don't feel like it? Cunt, just do it anyway!
How to know if someone is Authentic
Ask:
  1. Is this person where I want to be?
  2. Did this person become a success ethically?

War Plan
  1. What did I accomplish this week?
  2. What will I accomplish next week?
  3. What are my problems and challenges?

Monday, November 2, 2015

The Creative Mind - Ernest Holmes

Today I took about 6-7 hours of my Monday reading and finishing up this book which was about 70+ pages long. It was a bit difficult to understand the author at first but I started to get the gist and reading became enjoyable. The book became practical and just read fast.

Religious Science. New Age. New Thought.

My summary: You are your thoughts. Your thoughts are manifested in reality. Your words impact your life. Your action which comes only from your thoughts also impact your life. You create your own reality. You create your own laws. You have a creative mind which allows you to do whatever you please and think what ever you want - it is limitless. You are "I Am" - like a miniature universe, a mini God, Son of God - You can bring into creation anything you think about. You're thoughts have duration depending on what you think. Your thoughts become form. You can make yourself sick by thinking bad thoughts which manifests into forms and into reality. Think and own your positive thoughts. You are at peace and poise and therefore you do not fear anything. You have faith. You don't doubt or think of negative thoughts. You live in abundance and prosper because of your positive thoughts. You don't have an ego. Normal people won't even know that you are different although you are a magnetic person. You live according to the law which is the Truth. You're standards are based on the law and it is beyond this human laws. What humans talk about or care about are minuscule compared to the law; it is like a baby crying.

You are Son of God. A force that will shape the world. Your power are your thoughts. No one can control your thoughts but you. You are responsible for yourself first and foremost. Be aware of your thoughts. Create your reality.