Hotheadedness or Impatience and Ticks

I don't know why I was so hotheaded earlier and just blurted out everything inside me. I know it felt good during the time but right now it just hit me that I shouldn't have said any of that stuff.

I should be calm and collected. Because one bad thing (curse word) can start a fight or lead to something else bad. I've already witness this recently when my friend got into a verbal back and forth with some random stranger on the street to which they wanted to jump us.

Guess is was stupid of me to lose my cool but maybe it was because I was frustrated at the situation I was in. I was watching the news with parents and you know how I try not to watch the news in general because it has a lot of negativity and blah blah blah; mass media is bad. So I saw some violent images/aggression on screen while trying to understand the story my dad kept on blabbering the same things and even when I called him out on it he'd do it again, like wow he is so similar to my little brother. Doesn't even admit his fault and when someone criticize him/them they get butthurt and their ego get bruise so they have to snap and bite back.

This is too common and it aggravates me every time. I am aware of the problem now and now I will try my best to not lose my cool.

Deeeeeep breath in the nose, I am aware.

Deep breath out... I let it go...

I Quit on my Little Brother

I quit on my little brother.

I made a big mistake by reading the power of now and being too soft to the point where he does not give a fuck about me or my parents or anyone in the family for that matter. He is disrespectful and very stubborn. He talks back even when is wrong. He has a big ego and even when he does things wrongly or hurt someone he isn't even fazed. Is this the definition of a sociopath?

Tai Lopez called this kind of person a pig. Don't try to teach a pig how to fly because you won't be able to. You won't be able to make it budge to begin with. Pigs will be pigs. They will even bite you for trying to assist them. They are lazy and all the want to do is suck value and not return favors. They want to lay in their own pile of shit. Don't even dare to instill an idea of self-development in them for they will not give a fuck. Their life is based on their peers or materialistic things or gossipy shows. They think they are entitled to the world and that the world owes them shit.

Why can't we Coexist? Why are people such fucking morons? What does it mean to practice? How can I ignore this shit? I think I should just be the best example and only help those who want to help themselves. I hear that reward/punishment works with them pigs.

I can't believe what the world is turning to now a days. Even family don't even seem like family. WTF? Stay in your room and worry about your own life on the laptop all day.Yeah just ignore your kids. Ignore your siblings and then when a problem arise just fight back because you're always "right." You're always nonchalant and don't give a fuck because it doesn't apply to you. Do you even know what family means?

Mom Wants to Control my ass

Since I was born she doesn't leave me alone. Everything I want to do is rejected. I'm an artist and she's a traditional conservative. I listen to her and become effeminate. I When I ask for solutions she gives me no answers. She wants me to things that I don't agree with and she calls me out. I explain things to her in another perspective and she doesn't open up and used her old beliefs which hold her back to argue with me. Her wants are only of self-interest and does not promote growth. I resent her for being super selfish and do not think for my well-being or growth. She has low standards and I need to get out of my comfort zone and this house. He has blind spots when she doesn't want to hear something she'd ignore it. Sometimes I have to repeat things over and over just to get my point across and later she'd still.