Take Responsibility

I need to take responsibility for my life. I need to stop wasting money. I need to stop acting on impulse. I need to make my own smart decisions and stick to them. I need to contribute to the group. I need to have confident in what I say and do. I need to not show signs of weakness.

I need to push myself to work towards success instead of running away from challenges or complaining and whining. Brain has two options: fight or flight. Easy way out is flight but less people fight. I need to be a fighter with a warrior spirit.

I need to not blame anyone or anything for my shortcomings. I need to be confident in myself even if I made a mistake. I want to put my best foot forward and not be wavering. I need to stare challenges straight in the eye. I need to learn from my environment and adjust accordingly. I need to be happy and positive. I need to help others whenever I can. I have to be of value to help and give others value.

I do not have to be a talker but I need to be aware of my environment. Pay attention to life and respond to life instead of just observing. At the very least I need to say what I am thinking out loud. I need to be a better person. So much better that I don't think about myself. I need to do the right thing and mimic the right people. Do not be intimidated by such people.

Keep learning and growing. Share what I know generously. Learn and compare what I know to what others know. Be confident in my BL: voice, posture, tone, eye contact. Do not be afraid of anything. Solve the problem ASAP.

Work on this project. Focus on it. Stop thinking negative. Be awake. Ask questions. Participate. Learn/Grow...

Speak up, Ask and you Shall Receive, Move UP

Lately I've been slow. I've been stagnate. I haven't moved! I'm dying!

I need to move. I need to move so that I can breath and flow with life instead of resisting life or paralyzing myself.

I need to speak up when I need to say something and be firm as a rock.

I need to not be so predictable or wishy-washy because I am only shooting myself in the foot.

One crack leads to many cracks. Repair that shit before it becomes something so bad that it takes longer to repair.

I have everything and every opportunity available to me. I just need to go for it.

What do I want? Go for it. Have some goals and ambition. Life is meant to be lived and moved and not to sit still and contemplate as it passes by. Thinking does not do much or help much. "One must do!" said the Legendary Bruce Lee.

Learn to think for myself. Stop it with letting others lead. Lead myself and think for myself. Ask for help if need it. Don't let my ego get in the way. Those who ask shall receive. Whether that be good or bad those who ask shall receive. Give and take.

My Interests or Previous Interests

1. trying new foods
2. family trips
3. family traditions
4. martial arts
5. soccer
6. gym
7. books
8. walks
9. photography
10. acting
11. singing
12. dancing
13. college
14. pua
15. Anime
16. Video games
17. volunteering
18. religion
19. culture
20. adventures
21. philosophy
22. learning
23. exercise
24. playing with children
25. photoshop
26. drawing
27. spirituality
28. meditation
29. kpop
30. comics

What I want and How to get there (Lonely in VA)

Friends - talk to everyone, give people your attention or company, be self-confident, be positive
Success - try new things, meet new people, follow social norms
Connections - try making new friends, try new things, be positive
Hobbies - try new things, stick with them, meet new people, be positive
Happiness - be positive, overcome obstacles, no excuses, win

Frustrations / Alone / Saturday

Right now I am trying to do my group assignment and I have been sitting here for hours on end yet I do not know how to complete this assignment.

I read and read over what I need to cover and now I need to consolidate everything I read into an outcome for the presentation. My confusion lies in do I make up my own outcome based on my readings? Yes?

I need to get this done.

It is the weekend and we all have a lot of time to ourselves yet I do not have any plans or friends and am here inside my room...

I don't connect with anyone or have anything to say. I do not have any transportation or hobbies...

I'm dying...

Even after finishing this assignment what am I going to do?

I don't even have the workout clothes or access to a gym because I don't have a car or friends here. I have 13 more weeks to go and this problem is not getting better.

I have to get better somehow... I have to keep moving forward. I have to see light in all things and create opportunities for myself. I have to keep on growing and learning. I have to open up my mouth and talk to people. Stop judging and try something new. Stop thinking or be inside my head all the time. Just do it! Just say it! Be kind and be compassionate. Don't put myself down...

Cheer people up. Help others. Help myself first before I can help others. Be an expert. Live man live!